Following a spiritual path – oh shit I’m human too …
I had finished my book One Path, Many Lights and sent it off to the publisher in preparation for printing. As I sat in my chair in my family room preparing to meditate. My attention was drawn to the energy lifting from the ground and moving up towards the ceiling. I watched intently as many white translucent clouds within the room moved upwards with ease. A thought came, and I recognised that it was my own energy moving out of my home here in Bendigo. It was time to move!
Over the next couple of weeks I organised my book launches and came to Mt Eliza to research where I would live on the Mornington Peninsula. I was happy and everything was flowing and life felt in sync. Within three days I found a place to live. Then on the 26th June I had my book launch at the Conservatory Café at Wyreena Community Art Centre in Croydon, and what a humbling night filled with so much love and support. I then travelled back home to Bendigo for my final free community meditation class and book signing on the 7th July, another evening filled with love, laughter and friendship.
On the 15th July I packed up my home and everything I owned and as the truck drove away to the holding yard for the night. I jumped in my car and drove the two hour journey to my new home in Mt Eliza, and camped out for the night in preparation for the removalist coming at 8am the next morning.
Bright and early the next morning, I was delighted and surprised to answer the front door because my friend Maria Hill was there to help me unpack. In fact, she came an hour earlier than we discussed. I can honestly say Maria on that day was my Earth Angel. Within ten minutes of her arrival I’d just informed the neighbours of the removalist van arriving, walked down my neighbour’s stairs, along her walkway to see the young men from the removalist company walking towards me. I waved, not realising there was a side gutter on the walkway, my left foot fell into it, I heard a loud pop and I was down on the ground before I had an opportunity to take my next breath.
The pain was intense, I went into shock, my whole body shaking, clammy and cold, and I started to wheeze finding it difficult to catch my breath. I could see myself because I was out of my body, spiralling. When I connected to my physical body I felt nauseous and faint. I could hear myself talking and reassuring me that I would be okay. I focused really hard and as I took off my shoe and saw my ankle, I started to spin again, this time trying not to faint. Not long later I was taken to hospital in an ambulance. You see, I broke my left ankle and ruptured two of my ligaments, OUCH!!
Maria was left to deal with the removalist, Telstra and a plumber, and what a mighty job she did. At the time I didn’t realise it, but everything was still in flow and in sync, it had to be, she had come early and unexpected. Thank you with all of my heart Maria for your courage, laughter (you know what I mean) and organisation.
In shock for several days, those close to me rallied to unpack my home to ensure I was comfortable. I was meant to fly to the USA for a Sound Therapy course a week later and had to cancel. Financially it could have been disastrous, but I have since received all monies back from the course and accommodation less a fee of $400 for cancelling my airfares. Even that has been tempered with the return in $US because I gained most of the loss back.
During this past six weeks, I felt incredibly supported by my friends who are my family. There have been those who have visited, unpacked, cooked, shopped and taken me on an outing or two. There have also been many who have phoned, emailed and messaged with their kind and loving support and that has nourished my spirit. Thank you to everyone.
I’m healing well, and you may wonder, what was that all about? I know I did. Many in spiritual circles will have their own thoughts and ideas. Some have stated I had to slow down and nurture myself, and others have stated it was the wrong time to go to the USA. What I do know is the second book has commenced a little earlier than expected, and more healing and understanding of old patterns that emerged, have now been seen for what they truly are – old patterns!
I’ve been exhausted, sobbed, felt sadness and released. There was no excuse to hide or ignore, and know where to run (pardon the pun). My authentic-self urged me to listen to my soul, my heart, and to experience and take action, and to break the shackles that I had so cleverly created at a time they were needed – but no more. Those old patterns were not in my conscious thoughts, they were deep in the subconscious steering the way. The shoulds all fear based of course. I should do this, I should do that. Then there was the realisation of the emotional garbage that had accumulated, and was buried deep within the subconscious. I was not at the wheel, they were. It was time to claim the driver’s seat, be fearless and more present in my life and clean the emotional debris hidden within, and open to love in its purest form.
These past few months and the recent super moon have been such an opportunity for each of us to grow and evolve. As part of that evolvement we are being called to action, there is nowhere to hide. We can try to ignore, but everything is being unearthed for our greater good and that of our planet.
As a light worker, I have a responsibility to grow and evolve so that I may assist others not just by words on a page, but by example. As I grow, I become more peaceful, and my light becomes brighter and energetically it supports our Mother Earth and those that I meet along my path. Yes, I’m also human and flawed, and that is why I’m sharing my story, in the hope that it may inspire and support you on your journey. The spiritual path can be a lonely one, but I cannot do this alone as a human being. Many lights shining together create an enormous glow, and the web of light lifts the spirit of man/woman, all sentient beings and our Mother Earth.
Today, my energy has returned along with creativity and clarity. My meditations are more insightful and I’m happy and accepting of the path that is unfolding. I feel aligned with Mother Earth, connected to God and stronger in my physical and emotional bodies. My heart is full to overflowing with love, I close my eyes and send out a stream in all directions. Open to receive for all is flowing to support you my friends – we can do this together.
My first book commenced with a suspected aneurism in my carotid artery, now my second with a broken ankle. Each book has been divinely guided, and I have stated to the Universe that I do not wish to commence my third book with an unexpected health or emotional trauma – let’s trust all of my consciousness is listening.
Until next time,
Copyright © Maria Lacey