First Published in Sibyl Magazine January 2019
How many times have we questioned whether we are good enough? How many times have we tripped ourselves up with our unsavoury words about ourselves?
The past couple of years had been my hardest for a very long time as I recovered from illness. During that time, I had realisation after realisation about my personal history and what pain and suffering I’d been carrying. It felt heavy and had drained me, and some of that suffering wasn’t even mine. It was that of others.
Being an empath and also being unwell my energy was low and I’d become a sponge unable to protect my energy field. Silly I’d say, for I’d been well versed as a spiritual teacher to put practices into place, but my condition left me feeling defenceless.
Through that time, I understood how my self-worth had been thrashed. Although a glass half full girl, and someone who’d experienced many miraculous events in her life. There seemed to be an underlying dirty river that tainted the purity of this soul’s journey.
On reflection, it was my soul’s urges that had me experiencing this part of my life. My soul knew that for me to step up, show up and expand my light, I needed to clear the debris of the past and move into a higher state of awareness for me to fulfil my purpose.
The extraneous length of my illness had been caused by me! Initially, it was a wake-up call. A moment for me to rest and heal, and what did I do. Pushed, struggled and wrestled day and night. My mind was not on the here and now but on the should’s, what if’s, and the future, which I might add was created through my need to survive cheered on by fear itself. Yes, that underlying dirty river, fear and survival.
Yet, this was the right timing, for I didn’t need to fear my survival because I had a small nest egg that I could live on for a short time.
I look back and think how I could have made this so much easier on myself if I only listened to my soul, for I heard, but my fear had a louder voice, and the rest was history.
Through this miraculous journey, oh yes, I still believe it was. I’ve come to understand I’ve had underlying beliefs that have sabotaged my personal happiness. Those beliefs were embedded from a young age, and although I’ve done much self-work, it was time to purify the river.
Through my healing journey, there have been some gems, and the most prevalent that makes me smile is, I AM GOOD ENOUGH. Good enough in all ways, and I’m now showing up, lighting up and stepping up in my life.
You see, our soul yearns for us to grow and be happy, and if I can share anything, that would be to listen to that quiet voice you feel within your heart and allow it to lead the way.
With much love and gratitude,
Maria Lacey was born in Australia and has travelled extensively overseas being led by visions, dreams and spiritual guidance.
The author of a personal and spiritual memoir, One Path, Many Lights. Maria writes about life (the human and spiritual path), the adversity, learning, musings, and triumphs.
A successful entrepreneur with over 19 years in her own business, Maria humorously states, “I am my greatest case study.” Maria is a qualified Counsellor, Hypnotherapist, Reiki Master Teacher, Spiritual Teacher, Meditation Teacher, Sound Healer, Channel, Author and Speaker.
Maria feels passionate about restoring hope into the hearts of many.
For further information about the author go to: http://www.marialacey.com.au/
Maria’s first book – https://www.amazon.com/One-Path-Many-Lights-Spiritual-ebook/dp/B00YOIOTIS